Why am I doing this?

So, here I am. Once again trying to jump-start my brain into getting back into the more creative aspects of my life. I have used every excuse that I can think of or borrow from people I know as to why I simply don't have time to write...or take photos. But the reality is...I am afraid that the stories I thought of years ago simply won't be bothered by my coming back to them because I did give up on them. So here i am, with the tv playing in the background and starting something new. This is more  for me than anything else, but if I write something then I am improving my brain in what I want to do.